Category Archives: life

I want to feel love…

I want to feel love dammit, I want to ache when I think about that I have to wait to see you, I want to go crazy from missing you, I want to feel whole again when I see you, to feel in bliss when we slowly embrace under the dimmed lights, to lie in together, to feed each other and play with our food, to feel jealous when you talk about other people, to reconcile in tears, to explore together in unknown places, to feel like we are the only two people in the world, I want to feel bliss…I want to feel connected…I want to feel love!

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Perception of my own reality

I often perceive myself making the same mistakes over and over again, I think I know the right door ways and paths to follow to lead to a better more productive and possibly happier self but I find myself screaming at my continued inability to change, like I am not directly connected to the decision making part of my existence, I just coax along watching the days and years pass by into nothingness my existence slowly fading away, like was I ever even here, are my memories real, am I who I was, was who I was better than the me right now, will the future me one day find the courage to make a change, am I missing something to make me whole or can I become whole on and by myself?